Thursday, April 17, 2014

going the wrong way


We're going screen-free tomorrow and Saturday,
so I'm posting my 4 wk progress report a day early.
(I know - the blog is usually exempt from screen time decrees, but I figured - it's only 2 days...)
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The title may have given you a clue;
I'm up 2.2 lbs.

I quit taking my measurements after the first 3 I took 
showed (not insignificant) increases.

I can not express how discouraged I am.

I want to cry.
And EAT ALL THE THINGS.
I want to say screw exercising.

But I'm tired of being fat, 
so I won't do that.

Well, I will cry.... 

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It clearly doesn't matter, 
but I didn't miss a single workout the past 4 weeks,
even though some days I really had to talk myself into exercising.
I ate well 90% of the time, and even when I 'cheated' I didn't go hog wild
and I drank plenty of water.
I (mostly) took my supplements - which aren't specifically for weight loss, but are supposed to be helping me be healthier over-all.
I get plenty of sleep.

I don't know what else to do.


(And I know it isn't all about the scale
or the measurements
but still - it feels like I got a big fat F on a test I worked really hard to prepare for)

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

you do not know how the Teacher grades you. I bet He gave you an A + you are looking on the out side and He looks in the heart! I think you have done great! I know you are not happy with the results you see. but I also believe you have to have stronger muscles now and a lot more strength in you inner core for sure. you just keep it up and see!
Love you,
Mom

emilyj said...

Have you had your adrenals and hormone levels tested? Getting your body healthy and in balance often precedes any weight loss. Sorry you are discouraged! :(